I wrote this for you, Nicholas Francis Lee

Seasons change,
flowers wither.
From black to grey,
dawn to dusk,
eyes open,
winds change.
Like the sands of time, you return to the where you came from.

Saying your were wonderful would be a lie. You were amazing. From little, you watched us grow as we did the same. I'll never forget when you used to come over and huddle up with my brother and I. How you'd take us to MacDonalds and get Dom just the buns of the burger cause he was such a picky eater. You'd take me for walks, whisper how great of a grand daughter I was and you always had the best things to say. Time passed by and we shared unforgettable moments together. Your favourite song till today is quando quando and you'd serenade to mama Rose, "Paper Roses" and "she wears my ring" cause those are her favourite songs. You'd play the harmoncia to any tune I wanted to hear, you were a walking tablet of love pick up lines. One which I told you that you could compile a series of. I know you love cheeseburgers and authentic peranakan food. You'd smile everytime we went by and as I got older, I realised how much you slowed down. When I couldn't even stand on my two feet, you were carrying me around planting kisses all over my face. I did the same when I saw you. You talked about the importance of god but loved to gamble. You'd pick the best fruits and I mean the best. You knew I loved mangoes so you'd always get them for me even when I wasn't around. Rambutans, oh GOD durians, you always got the sweetest ones and everytime you did, you'd say "De-nise! Gong Gong got you the best durians. YOU MUST TRY THIS ONE" and it never failed to bring a smile to my face. You'd watch me eat with pride in your eyes. You knew my childhood favourites. We'd sit in the balcony and I'd watch you rip durian after durian apart with your strong hands. I remember you always gave me top priority to pick the best. Especially when no one was watching. You were such a great man. But god believes in balance, he put you here and now that he's put your head to rest, I hope you find the path that leads to the right way. I love you gong gong Nic. I couldn't help but burst into tears when I got the phone call. I remembered how we were reminiscing all the good times just the other day. Your smile came to mind and it broke my heart. I couldn't breathe.

I miss you already. Everyone is sobbing terribly cause we didn't just lose someone. We lost you. There's no one in the world that would shift the way we all feel about you. You're all the wonderful things, like a beautiful explosion of colour.
You were always full of colour in that tailored shift and trousers of yours. I liked that. You'll always be my grandfather Nicholas Francis Lee.
If I had it my way, I'd keep you in arms forever. But now that its your time to go, have a safe journey.

I'll meet you there soon.
I'll be waiting for you to call.
I love you.


"Every moment's a day, everyday seems a lifetime. Let me show you the way, to a joy beyond compare. I can't wait a moment more, tell me quando quando quando. Say its me you adore. And then darling tell me when."

You sing it better than Engelbert humperdinck.
Sleep tight grand daddy.
D.